the final walk in the forest

turtlecolor is now methadone free. okay that is a lie...............he hasn't taken it in two days, so it still is networking through his body until one of the organs that filters decides to filter that last little bead of hellfire. oh, if i could only know when that last little bead falls from some pore on my face or in the hairy adventure of my arm pit.........i would throw a party! and i will invite doctor kevorkian just in case he needs some work. no no, a joke, ha ha, so funny.

my body aches, my tummy rumbles, my skin sweats, my muscles move slooowwwww, and gravity sure is turned way up. but i havn't taken methadone in two days!!!! and if i need it, i will go on a suboxone program i scheduled for on friday. but what if i don't want to get on suboxone, and just start running and jogging and doing cartwheels until the 40 pounds i gained while taking this shit is gone and i am running around local parks in a speedo! oh what a dream. what a fabulous and attainanable dream. not just for me, but for the whole community.

thanks all who have been there. holleygirl soon you will check again this page i hope and know i will survive. and then i can stop thinking about me me me all the time, and start living a life with all the the other creatures........................okay i am a teacher and have a wonderful family, so i don't think about me me me, but i have been dealing with this this this for way too long. a year and a half of a compromised life..............................three more days, i can do it!!!